Hey Everyone! It has been forever since I blogged...so I thought since I had the day off I would do it now. Anyways Life has been very busy lately, yet also extremely boring. I am not much of a routine person, so this getting up and going to work every day just to come back home has caused the spontanaeity in my life to drop drastically. However Cait and I did have a fun weekend...included a lot of driving to random places for a "bad time", yet we still had fun..ha that sounds a bit confusing...but Sunday made it better as we took a road trip to Beamsville and visited the gang there. It was good times. Cait and I took some fun pictures on our pimpmobile, and had a humourous dinner at Kelseys along with Matt, Adam, Dan and Meg..so yep. Other then that life has simply been filled with working...for those of you who dont know, I am now working at Williams coffee pub...I like it well enough. I love that restaurant and all the food...so working there is pretty alright too. I must say that whenever any of you go through the drive thru, just be thankful for the speed and service you get..until you try it you dont really understand the effort and preparation that goes into it. There are some really cute regular old guys who are always there to greet me at 5:45am..and tell me all these stories and to make sure that while I am cleaning the store, their cars also need cleaned etc...Fun fun.. and yah other than that i dont do too much..i usually come home and nap.. My friends include my brother and Cait, lol..so when im not working im usually with them. Its nice though, to have time to spend with my brother, we enjoy ourselves..went and saw the Wedding Crashers yesterday..it was pretty good, funny but had its parts that I didnt really enjoy as much as others would...but meh, such is movies these days. Today is my nephews 3rd birthday which is so exciting. Apparently when my mom called and asked him, how old he was he replied with "I seven!"..lol so cute. Summer life has been quite interesting...I have been learning a lot of lessons and have already grown a lot in many aspects of life...not all of it has been fun, but i know its necessary... So stratford is going alright..the town is absolutely beautiful..so walking is nice...its just the bordem that sometimes overcomes me thats the killer..I know soon enough such things will pass.. Anyways im done rambling...Ciao

Here is Gone

You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions for me, yeah
And we wake up in the breakdown
Of the things we never thought we could be, yeah
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

I have no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'
I know it's out there, I know it's out there
And I can feel you fallin'
I know it's out there, I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah
I know it's out there, I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah...

The Sheer Rudeness of People

So when I was down in the States, I had mentioned to Jessica and my brother that while I love the USA, Americans do tend to be more rude than Canadians..but coming back to Canada I have discovered that this is not necessairly true... I think more or less everyone is just downright cold hearted and rude.
Now i know this certainly doesnt apply to all people, but today this is what has been on my mind, and is slightly angering me. Whatever happened to kindness and courteousy?
While at the library today and approaching the ladies who work there with a perfectly pleasant tone..I just got back the shrug of the shoulders, "I really don't care what your needs are service". Now I am sorry, but if you are going to put yourself in a work field of community service perhaps you should intend on being a sociable person...Anyways it has brought me to think about a Chinese Proverbs that says "One generation plants the trees; another gets the shade"...full well knowing that speaks so much truth and how we act today will be pressed upon future generations should we not be careful with the steps we are taking.
None of us are perfect by any means but whatever happened to common courteousy, seriously?
Instead of saying a nice hello to someone as we walk down the streets, we avoid eye contact and walk by as fast as possible...instead of holding the elevator door for another, we all press the close door button as to shut the door as fast as possible...we dont take time to say goodnight, or goodbye to people because we figure it doesnt make a difference or matter, but it certainly does. We are so indulged in ourselves that we dont even begin to see the needs or the hearts of others...we dont see people as one of ourselves; people with hearts and feelings...no inferior than us, no better, but as an object...its sad.
Anyways I read a quote this week that has kind of stuck with me, it says Anger is a condition where the mind speaks faster than the heart...and it has stuck with me.
Earlier this week however I fell right into the trap of anger. I let my words get away with me, and said things I would rather not have said. I was exactly what I hated..someone who was cold hearted, self indulged and rude. While it is such a blessing that I figured this out and was able to act upon it and pray, it didnt not come without an expense...for sure I know that peoples opinions of me have changed. I know I now rest upon their forgiveness and ability not to judge, but for sure its hard...because I can already sense a change in their personna..This though too has its positive spin, because I have learned from my mistakes and know now what exactly it is I want to stay away from.
Well I am done for now....My prayer is that we can all add kindness into our lives...it is a fruit of the spirit, and a very essential one....this whole blog simply stated.."Treat others the way in which you would want to be treated"

......well well well..
Once again it has been a while since I have updated. A lot has happened between my last post and now, but that is life...
Had an awesome time up at the beach for a few days...was very fun and relaxing but also very emotional as the woman I went with has been having a lot of struggles with different aspects of life. It appears such is happening with many people I love. It hurts a lot...to know essentially that they are hurting.....but Always in the back of my mind is that Christ has already overcome this world. And we all have victory in Jesus.
My heart is sore right now...for others, for myself, and for the thick and dark sin that is present in my life.
Bitterness is something that has slowly began to fester. I just want to be able to let go of it. I do not want Satan to have a foot hold, and so I look up to the Lord...i need His unending love and His power in making His grace sufficient for me and His power perfect in my weakness....and this is my prayer, for myself, for cait, for meg, for brenda, for all of those who are hurting...that we may close our eyes, pray to God, and to continually walk toward His awesome presence.

Perfect Song

So i was listening to MSN radio when this song came on..as soon as it started with the words..i realized this song, is my exact outlook and exactly how I feel..so here are the awesome lyrics..



I drive an Army Jeep
My bumper sticker reads
'Drink 'til he's cute'
That's what I'm gonna do
Ain't got no serious thing
Don't wear a diamond ring
I got a new tattoo
I think you'll like the view
And in my mind
The sun shines
All the time

Chorus:
('Cause) I'm just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
When I let my hair down
(That's when the party starts)
(The party never stops)
Who needs a boyfriend
I got my girl friends
When we get together
The summer never ends
Yeah yeah, oh oh oh
(I'm just a summer girl)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
Tanks tops and cutoff jeans
Bikinis and belly rings
We'll make that scene
When the DJ plays 'Dancin' Queen'
Fellas, lay your money down
We'll let'ya buy a round
Don't push your luck
Don't get more than your hopes up
In my world
Day or night
Rain or shine

(Repeat Chorus)

Rap:
Everybody needs a little bit of sunshine
Everybody needs time to unwind
Everybody's got to have a good time
(I'm just a summer girl)
Everybody get up on your feet
Everybody got to shake your body
Everybody got a right to be free
(I'm just a summer girl)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Repeat Chorus)
(Repeat Rap)