As the sun sets, another day is passing,
The days are all going by one in the same.
Fall is setting in, and the beautiful trees are beginning their change for winter. The world ever-changing. Work slowing steadily.

I am in a state of many emotions...

Worried...
* about this weekend.. fearing 3 against 1. But feel it most necessary to do so, solely to appease. Not knowing what will come of it, but needing to stick to what is best for me. That God fills me with His wisdom and strength.
* about my mother.. until I see blood results and hear this is normal.. until she gains energy enough to live a normal day again. I cant have her any other way. Its most likely nothing, but until we know, our minds will always take an idea and run with it..That God heals her and renews her strength.
*about October 31st and where to next. And Bentley


Frustrated..
* by manipulation in a round about way.
* simply by being frustrated
* by every day revolving around the same pain, or concept. That I bit the hand that fed me. That when I look for your opinion, when I need you to hear me, or just voice reason, you're not there. I just want to talk to you, harmlessly and innocently.
* by thinking that problems were solved, tensions relieved, yet reality proves said wrong.
*by never knowing which is left and which is right

Happy
* that the sunshine remains constant
* for the blessings of provision
* for the truth that God's favor is and goes before me
* knowing that no matter what, knowing Him,,, there is no greater thing...and on that, I stand.

Without words.

and can it be?!

Boiling over with emotion.
Gratefulness.
Knowing You Lord, there is no greater thing.

Standing in worship and song after song being exactly what I had been waiting for, or meditating on through out the week... this past Sunday....You bring me to tears. The way in which You want to bless me, never ceases to amaze me, and for that I am thankful.

The idea of going to school.. I just can not wrap my head around it. The possibility that my biggest dream from the age of 12.. could come to pass, and so quickly and so seemingly Your desire..can it really be?

I have no concept on His timing really.. but all I want is for it to be His will.
Show me Your ways oh Lord, teach me Your paths. Psm 25:4

God- so astounding.
In the midst of life, You are there.
When I wake up, You are there.
When I whisper under my breath, You are there.
When I feel like tearing up, You are there.
When I laugh, You are there.
When I pray, You are there.
Lord, You are so astounding, for You are there.
All of you is more than enough.
And I could not ask for more.